My new attitude surprises me. But it's true. I have many online friendships, but the true ones will still exist whether I am online in groups 24/7 or if I take breaks for whatever reason. I'm taking a break right now because I'm done with explaining myself and arguing in circles when it won't accomplish anything. I truly feel that it shouldn't matter who your friends are, and that just because someone thinks one of your friends isn't important doesn't make it true. It's disturbing to me that I may have had that mindset in the past and I'm working hard to remedy my "me me me" attitude. Taking a week, or two, or four- away to refocus is my plan.
Already it's been therapeutic to close the laptop, reset the phone's home page and use my time elsewhere. The last few days I spent preparing for and hosting guests, and yesterday was out of commission with a migraine and a fussy baby. It's almost 12:30 and I've already washed diapers and another load of laundry, cleaned the kitchen and gave the baby a bath before playing one on one with him and putting him down for his nap. I'm starting to realize that I would probably be a better housekeeper and mother without the distraction of the Internet. I can't quit it entirely. There's no way I ever would. The 21st century has www._____.com ingrained firmly into it, making life easier and more complicated all at once.
So. It's off the blog and on to some lunch and sewing that's been neglected for far too long.
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